Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Starting over

Well, if you read my last blog many months ago, or if you know me on Facebook, then you know I delivered a healthy and beautiful baby girl, Everleigh Dayle DeLoof. Her labor and delivery story will be written soon :) But that is not what this blog is about.

As my pregnancy progressed, I watched my weight climb UP, UP, UP. As I got further along, I began to swell. I would swell from my ankles to my thighs. I could barely bend my knees. I swore I would never see 255 again like I did with Jayce. And I didn't. But I did see 244 pounds on the day I delivered Everleigh.

In the blur of becoming a mommy to a newborn along side of a toddler, I lost sight of that and survived the first weeks. And when I slowed down, well, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. The wide hips, what appears to be a deflated tire around my waist, back fat, big giant nursing boobs. WOW. Now yes, I know I just had a baby 5 months ago. BLAH BLAH BLAH

Thing is, I had finally felt comfortable in my own skin after having Jayce, and now here I am again, uncomfortable. Uncomfortable in my own clothes, uncomfortable to be naked. Just uncomfortable. For the 5 weeks post partum, I ate like I was still pregnant. For many women, breastfeeding makes them drop weight, all the while, they eat whatever they way. Uh, that girl is not me. Know what breastfeeding does to me? Makes me HUNGRY. I EAT. I eat often and I eat junk. So, as I see my scale slowly decrease for the first 3 weeks, I think, "maybe this time breastfeeding will help me lose weight." Then the scale stops moving, and I know I have to be pro-active and take control again.

That being said, I decided to head back to Weight Watchers. Well, because let's face it, it works! I found a friend who was willing to do meetings with me so we could be accountable. I loaded up my kiddos this morning and I headed to the meeting. I stepped on the scale, and here it is. My starting weight: 228.

Ouch. But, now I have put it out there for the world to see. This week I will also take starting photos and measurements so that I can continue to share my progress. I will also bring back Foodie Friday amd share some of my favorite recipes with you! And in one short week, I will begin training for the Disney Glass Slipper Challenge which is in February. It is a 10k on Saturday and half marathon on Sunday. This will undoubtedly be the biggest challenge of my running career as my training time is limited and I haven't ran since February. So, I hope you are ready to follow my progress with that as well! I am looking forward to sharing it all with you :)

Until next time!

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